this is the dhoif doya.

2012-01-02T01:00:00.001+08:00

Assalaamu'alaykum, I have moved to

http://binthamzah.blogspot.com

See you there, inshaALLAH!

isteri cerdik yang solehah.

2011-06-08T09:34:00.000+08:00

Isteri cerdik yang solehah

Penyejuk mata, penawar hati, penajam fikiran

Di rumah dia isteri, di jalanan kawan

Di waktu kita buntu, dia penunjuk jalan

Pandangan kita diperteguhkan

Menjadikan kita tetap pendirian

Ilmu yang diberi dapat disimpan

Kita lupa, dia mengingatkan

Nasihat kita dijadikan pakaian

Silap kita, dia betulkan

Penghibur di waktu kesunyian

Terasa damai bila bersamanya

Dia umpama tongkat si buta

Bila tiada satu kehilangan

Dia ibarat simpanan ilmu

Semoga kekal untuk diwariskan

♥ ♥ ♥

2011-06-01T09:40:00.000+08:00

assalaamu'alaykum, i have changed my blog just so you know!

click here to proceed to new blog.

2011-05-31T16:36:00.001+08:00

i feel like changing my blog. should i or should i not?

2011-05-24T23:44:00.001+08:00

assalaamu'alaykum, i was just reading a few posts from my previous blog, and i found this which i would like to share with you. the post was dated 12th may 2008, when i just started my second year poly.

* * *

it has been quite a while since i last stepped into a mosque. a few years ago, i thought it was only available when there were religious talks, prayers and events. truthfully, i didn't dare to enter alone because i deemed myself unfit for such a sacred place. it seemed to be only a place meant for the religious and spiritually-inclined.

i can't exactly rmb when was the first time i garnered courage to enter a mosque by myself, but the feeling was awesome. unlike times when there were events with the crowd and communications. this time it was just a quiet afternoon. perhaps you're able to see someone nestled at the corner of the praying area, reading the Qur'an. or another sitting quietly not faraway, murmuring verses praising ALLAH.

but among all, i love the time when i'm alone at the ladies prayer hall. it is just me & ALLAH. that was when i started liking to go to the mosque, not because of occasions, but i just feel like it. each time i step out of the mosque, i feel revitalised. i feel so happy but words can't describe its intensity.

sometimes, i get to meet the more mature adults. makcik-makcik (female aunties), as the malays would call it. usually we would exchange stories, and advice each other as well. i realise that sometimes they need us the younger ones to remind and motivate them, but ultimately they exceed us in terms of life experience.

* * *

2011-05-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

(:

2011-05-22T17:52:00.002+08:00

aku bukan bidadari,

hanya seorang wanita faqir

yang mengharapkan belas ihsan Tuhan

sepanjang perjalanan hidup.

2011-05-18T22:36:00.001+08:00

:'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2011-05-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

2011-05-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

alhamduliLLAH

semoga diadakan setiap bulan seperti dahulu~ ameen ya Rabb.
rinduuuuuuu yang teramat sangat!

Reconstruction.

2011-05-11T10:33:00.001+08:00

stay positive positive positive! inshaALLAH khayr

bila dunia menusuk qalbu.

2011-05-11T02:02:00.001+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh,

today while in the bus on my way to work, i decided to re-read a book given as a birthday gift a few years ago, kerana hati tidak begitu tenteram, seperti mengidam akan sesuatu mengalahkan orang mengandung yang mengidam satay. so i thought the journey otw to work would be the best time to start re-reading the book, Rahasia Sufi.

the first chapter tells us of the journey of our roh, beginning from Alam Lahut (alam ketuhanan) all the way to the current life, Alam Ajsam (alam fizikal). i was frowning while reading it, sebab diselaputi kebimbangan especially when i read the following:

* * *

kemudian ALLAH perintahkan roh-roh itu menduduki badan-badan yang dikhususkan untuk mereka masing-masing sehingga lengkaplah suatu penciptaan yang amat sempurna. Kemudian disuruhlah pula para malaikat dan jinNYA untuk memberikan penghormatan kepada penciptaNYA yang Maha Agung itu, sesuai dengan firman ALLAH subhanahu wa ta`ala yang berbunyi:

"Maka apabila telah Aku sempurnakan kejadiannya dan Aku tiupkan kepadanya rohKu, maka hendaklah kamu tersungkur dengan bersujud kepadanya." (Surah Shad: 72)

Setelah roh itu diperbadankan, maka lupalah ia asal dan perjanjian dengan ALLAH subhanahu wa ta`ala. Lupalah roh itu yang ia datang dari Alam Roh. Lupalah ia perjanjiannya dengan ALLAH, tatkala di Alam Roh. Lupalah ia ketika pernah dahulu ditanya, sesuai dengan bunyi firman ALLAH:
"Bukankah Aku ini Tuhan kamu? Mereka menjawab: Sebenarnya dan kami menyaksikan." (Al-A`raf: 172)

Lupalah roh-roh itu akan asal-usulnya dan perjanjiannya dengan ALLAH. Lupalah ia bahawa ia akan kembali kepada ALLAH subhanahu wa ta`ala semula setelah selesai ketetapan ajalnya untuk hidup di muka alam yang fana' ini:

"Dan bahawa mereka mengira yang mereka tidak akan kembali lagi kepada Kami!" (Al-Qasas: 39)

Demikianlah sikap manusia yang melupakan dirinya, sehingga tidak mengenali Tuhan yang menciptakannya!

* * *

ya Rabb, adakah aku di antara mereka yang tidak mengenaliMu? bukan sekadar mengenali Nama-NamaMu namun dalam mengenaliMu dalam segala hal? hamba ada terbaca suatu petikan lain dalam buku tersebut dan hamba akui sedang mengalaminya. cederanya terlalu parah, kerana dihunus tusukan dunia secara bertalu-talu. i haven't been a good girl lately have i.......................... :'(

2011-05-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

tersentak dari lamunan tatkala membaca semula buku Rahasia Sufi.

2011-04-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

lily diana ♥

2011-04-16T22:31:00.001+08:00

♥

swing swing from the tangles of my heart.

2011-04-10T01:03:00.001+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh :)

just wanted to type a few paragraphs of updates before i turn in to sleep.

first up, i have decided not to get a double-sided metal swing as planned because firstly, we scoured for such swings in almost all the stores in singapore but the ones we found were either double-sided swings for children (when you sit, you have to awkwardly bend your knees) or some designs i didn't have a liking for and secondly, i think it would be best to purchase some other nice furnitures like an amben for the kampung feel outside home. saw some pretty ones, so i think it's time to get an amben for the house!

next, i am sure you will agree with me that it's great being a 21-year-old singaporean this year because of budget 2011! alhamduliLLAH ;) if you have read my fb, i posted the 20+ bracelets and bangles i bought on impulse few weeks back. that never happened in my life and till now, i am still finding the reasons to that sudden behaviour. thankfully i have done my force-saving before that incident happened! ya Rabb, please help me in mujahadatunnafs, especially when it comes to duniawi matters. ALLAHumma ameen. ;(

lastly, am currently experiencing breakouts due to stress! earlier this year, my skin has improved a lot but nowadays it has acted up again. hehe. though i am used to it (since it has been happening since sec sch), i do get demoralised sometimes because i feel that all the effort invested seems to not produce results. but he reminded me that i should be prioritising the cleanliness of my heart more than worrying about the scars and spots yang juga merupakan hamba Tuhan yang mengikut perintahNya. para wali ALLAH zaman dahulu akan bimbang jika mereka hidup dalam kesenangan, dan lebih suka hidup dalam kesusahan, kerana kesusahan lebih mudah menanamkan sifat kehambaan dalam diri seseorang, sedangkan kesenangan atau keindahan rupa lebih mudah menghilangkan sifat kehambaan tersebut. thank you awak for the reminder... :)

1st april.

2011-04-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh,

i am currently taking a breather before preparing for tomorrow's lesson observation. i.am.undeniably.nervous about it and i hope tmr will go about just fine, inshaALLAH ;)

last few days, the kids were very excited about 1st april. during my primary four class, i asked about what did they do to their friends (because i know for sure they would have done something silly that day).

"saya cakap dengan kawan saya yang seluar dia terbalik! lepas tu dia tengok, tapi seluar dia tak terbalik," said one student proudly.

"saya cakap pensel kawan saya kat tempat lain, tapi sebenarnya tidak ada," added another with a smile on his face.

even the girls admitted to playing pranks on their friends! some were happily telling me stories of people who joke with their friends by throwing flour and eggs at them.

with a smile, i took a deep breath and told them,

"kelas, kalau awak nak bergurau, boleh, tidak ada salahnya. agama kita benarkan kita bergurau. TE-TA-PI ada dua perkara yang awak perlu ingat.

"pertama, kalau bergurau hendaklah secara sederhana. awak bayangkan kalau kawan awak tu dalam keadaan sedih, seperti contoh ahli keluarganya baru meninggal dunia, ataupun kucing kesayangannya hilang, kemudian awak campak tepung dan telur ke arahnya. awak rasa dia suka atau tidak?"

the class went silent.

"kedua, awak tidak boleh berbohong. kalau awak kata, 'wahida! ada benda di situ (while pointing to a table). adakah saya berbohong? tidak. kerana meja juga merupakan benda. tetapi kalau saya kata, 'wahida! pensel awak di atas meja itu!' sedangkan pensel itu tidak ada di situ, saya telah berbohong.

"sama juga seperti, jika awak kata kepada kawan awak yang seluarnya terbalik sedangkan ianya tidak terbalik, awak telah berbo...hong."

some were sheepishly smiling, exchanging glances among themselves. then i told them that RasuluLLAH joked around too, but he did so moderately, giving them the example of the old lady who asked RasuluLLAH whether she was able to be admitted to paradise.

i wouldn't blame the kids of course, because i was once a student and a prankster (heheee) but over time, maturity and islaam have taught us to be wiser in terms of our conduct, alhamduliLLAH. oh and speaking of which, i hope to get back into madrasah next year! i was eager to register this year but after discussing about it with my family, i think it would be better to wait till 2012. *wink

till next time, wassalaamu `alaykum warahmatullah wabarakatuh.

ya ALLAH, perbaikilah agamaku~

2011-03-18T12:19:00.000+08:00

kiter promise.

:)))))))))

2011-03-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

ibu.ayah.nenek.

:'(

2011-03-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

di ruangan hati yang terdalam, terdetik perasaan rindu terhadap seseorang

2011-02-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

satu pergi,

dua datang sebagai ganti

:))

2011-02-25T10:29:00.000+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum, today is T.A.I.F. -- thank ALLAH it's friday! learnt it from ustazah hafizah on facebook ;) ytd, a number of things made my day completely awesome.

1) my vintage dresses have arrived!!

2) being in class with my kids. ytd was my 'spotcheck of individual handwriting and answers' mood. so after receiving a good scolding in relation to handwriting and incomplete answers, they tried to win back my heart by being more participative in class.

me: (not smiling at all) siapa tahu, apakah penjodoh bilangan untuk cincin? *wriggling my fingers, showing my ring*

student #01: cikgu, uh saya tahu! (silence) ULAS!

me: salah. cuba lagi.

student #02: *frantically flipping the penjodoh bilangan booklet* cikgu cikgu! SEBATANG CINCIN!

me: (angkat kening, wajah masih serius) hmm? bukan. hai... kan penjodoh bilangan untuk cincin ada di dalam booklet.

after gazillion attempts from all students, one quiet girl finally raised her hand to answer.

student #(don't know yang ke-berapa already): sebentuk cincin.

me: haa. tepat sekali! *rewards her with two wafer cookies*

the guys ah, so semangat that some were standing up while trying to find the answer. haha! mm, next week budak-budak punya CA1, nak usaha usaha usaha, doa dan tawakkal `ala ALLAH. this is my fiiiiiirst time teaching a class from scratch, sebab tu i nervous giler. hehehehehe (ini ketawa nervous sebenarnya). ok next.

3) i got hold of this precious gem ytd, many thanks to brother who went all the way to wisma indah to buy it for me! imam ghazali's bimbingan mu'minin by pustaka nasional. yaaaaay! alhamduliLLAH.

i cannot wait to bring this book to kuliah. but what's more important is to put your knowledge into practice, inshaALLAH kheir. thank you ya mujahid for recommending the book...:)

ya Rabb, manusia kadangkala mengecewakan. manusia kadangkala meninggalkan kita, mungkin kerana kelemahan diri kita sendiri. namun Engkau menggantikan sohabiah yang pergi dengan sahabat yang baru berupa buku permata yang jauh lebih bernilai, penawar hati yang tidak bisa teman lama kurniakan. terima kasih ya Rabb. alhamduliLLAH `ala kulli hal.

2011-02-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

di dalam kebimbangan terhadap murid-murid tentang peperiksaan,

Dia Mengingatkanku akan kebimbangan RasuluLLAH

terhadap ummah baginda, kebimbangan yang lebih dahsyat

tentang Hari Perhitungan di Padang Mahsyar.

2011-02-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

bawalah aku ke zaman dahulu agar bisa bersua dengan mereka yang solehah

women as explained by engineers.

2011-02-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

got this from an e-mail. hehe.

puisi: mimpi manusia.

2011-02-20T21:49:00.000+08:00

Dulu aku fikir mimpi itu sia-sia
Ke mana boleh kita tuju bersama mimpi?  
Ku fikir ia hanya angan-angan kosong  
Yang akan lenyap bertabrakan dibawa angin
Dan kita perlu menghadapi realiti  
Yang tidak seindah mimpi

Lalu engkau mengajak aku terbang ke langit  
Kerana katamu, di situ ada kehidupan  
Yang kita tidak bisa nikmati di bumi  
Lalu aku pergi bersamamu, menjadi saksi  
Untuk melihat apa yang ada di balik sana

Di situ engkau mengajak aku untuk bermimpi
Untuk melukis! segala apa yang dibicarakan hati  
Agar dapat dibawa pulang ke bumi  
Kerana katamu, mimpi yang memulakan segala cerita  
Mimpi yang disertakan langkah berani  
Dan perlahan membentuk menjadi pengalaman  
Pengalaman yang dibukukan dalam sebuah kisah hidup

Tiada dua kisah manusia yang sama
Itulah keindahan Tuhan dalam ciptaanNya  
Agar dunia dihiasi dengan warna kehidupun  
Yang semuanya tercetus oleh sebuah mimpi  
Yang hanya menanti untuk direalisasikan
Untuk menuju ke istana kejayaan
Selagi mana kejayaan itu di dalam reda-Nya

Hasil nukilan:
Siti Nadzirah Bte Hamzah
21 tahun, graduan Politeknik Ngee Ann
Berita Harian, EKSTRA!
18hb Februari 2011

aku telah berjanji kepada Tuhan untuk terus bermujahadah.

2011-02-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum all, i am finally here making some time for a bit of blogging before i continue reading my novel! a quick update, the kids' CA1 is drawing neeeeaaarrrr, about one and a half weeks from now, and i am panic-stricken already! i hope i have helped them well with their preparation for the coming paper, inshaALLAH. walaupun garang tetap garang, guwe sayang sangaaaaaat kat murid-murid guwe.

after the previous post, i managed to cheer myself up with the help of hamba al-faqir. shukran awak... :)

2011-02-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

hiburkan hatimu dengan selawat, wahai sang mujahidah

Allahumma solli wasallim wabaarik `alayh wa `ala alih.

♥

2011-02-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

Di dalam sebuah cinta terdapat bahasa yang mengalun indah mengisi jiwa. Merindukan kisah kita berdua yang tak pernah bisa akan terlupa. Bila rindu ini masih milikmu, ku hadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu. Harus berapa lama aku menunggumu?

Di dalam masa indah saat bersamamu yang tak pernah bisa akan terlupa. Pandangan matanya menghancurkan jiwa, dengan segenap cinta aku bertanya. Bila rindu ini masih milikmu, ku hadirkan sebuah tanya untukmu. Harus berapa lama aku menunggumu?

Aku menunggumu…

♥

2011-02-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

Andai kau menjadi pelangi

Biar ku jadi awannya

Agar kita selalu bersama

Andai kau menjadi sang duyung

Biar ku jadi karangnya

Agar kita sentiasa bersua

Andai kau menjadi merpati

Biar ku menjadi sang bayu

Agar kita sering bertemu

Andai kau menjadi puisi

Biar ku jadi melodi

Bersama kita menyanyi

Andai ku menjadi rembulan

Sudikah kau menjadi kejora

Hingga pagi nanti

Andai esok aku menjadi tanah

Sudikah engkau menjadi bunga

Menghiasi dadaku

♥

2011-01-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

biar membisu burung bersiulan

tenanglah gelombang lautan

ku masih setia

♥

puisi: bunga berwarna senja.

2011-01-14T08:54:00.001+08:00

Wahai bunga berwarna senja
Pernah engkau menceritakan kepadaku
Akan tamanmu yang suram tanpa warna
Dedaun yang dahulu subur enggan menghijau
Kemudian engkau mengeluh
Akan dirimu yang hampir layu kerana dahaga
Ingin bersembunyi dalam ketandusan tanah

Aku lihat wajahmu sedikit sugul
Sekali-sekala kelopakmu mengesat air mata
Aku faham, wahai bunga berwarna senja
Namun apakan dayaku, aku bukannya sang hujan
Aku sekadar mampu memetik bintang di langit
Dan menghulurkannya kepadamu
Aku ingin kau bahagia dengan sedikit sinar bintang
Meskipun ia tidak dapat menyuburkan seluruh taman

Kemudian kita dipisahkan kepulan awan
Setelah sekian lama, aku bertanyakan khabarmu
Dan juga khabar bintang kepunyaanku
Namun kau sangka aku menghantuimu dengan kegelapan malamku
(tidak sama sekali)
Lalu kau tikam sinarku yang sekadar ingin tahu
Kau tikam dengan bermacam duri
Kau tusuk kerdipanku! dengan buruk sangka

Kau kata aku tidak pernah melalui layunya taman
Tidak pernah kenal erti kepayahan
Kerana terlalu aman bersemayam di langit

Tapi bagaimana dapat kau pasti bahawa
Aku sentiasa mengerlip indah di dada langit?
Sedangkan aku paling hampir dengan hilaian petir
Aku sering mencari teduh saat guruh meraung

Wahai bunga berwarna senja
Aku tidak terfikir untuk menakutkan engkau
Apalagi untuk membuatmu terancam
Aku sekadar mengirimkan sedikit sinar
Hanya untuk menghapus sayu wajahmu
Hanya untuk lihat engkau terus mekar

Hasil nukilan:
Siti Nadzirah Bte Hamzah
21 tahun, graduan Politeknik Ngee Ann
Berita Harian, EKSTRA!
14hb Januari 2011

2011-01-12T23:10:00.021+08:00

this 2011, i have learnt to finally let go and move on. all my resolutions have been compacted into one, and that is to mujahadah the best i can. and in order to do that, i need to discipline myself. discipline discipline discipline! inshaALLAH khair ;)

2011-01-09T22:33:00.004+08:00

the sweetest birthday gift

♥

2011-01-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

Ya Rabbal `alameen,
jadikanlah hamba individu yang dapat membantu
guru-guruku di sekolah dalam usaha mendidik
dan membentuk para pelajar menjadi cemerlang
dari segi akhlaq serta bidang akademik
dengan barokahnya Rasulullah sollallahu `alaihi wasallam

hasbunaALLAH wa ni`mal wakeel, ni`mal maula wa ni`mannaseer
wassollallahu `ala sayyidina Muhammad, wa `ala alihi wasohbihi wasallam

♥

2011-01-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

wahai bunga mawar berwarna jingga

kesatlah air mata duka yang mengalir di pipi

dan hiburkan hatimu dengan zikrullah dan selawat

semoga Allah dan Rasul sentiasa menghiasi hatimu

sehingga dikau lupa akan kata nista manusia

stay strong my dearest ukhti!

♥

Puisi: Harapan.

2011-01-02T14:21:00.002+08:00

Manusia
Dilahirkan tanpa kesempurnaan
Itu aku mengerti
Aku mengerti hati yang memendam dengki
Lalu perasaan itu diselimuti keramahan
Aku mengerti sekiranya mereka
Tersenyum melihat aku kecundang
Kecewa di kala aku berjaya

Sahabat
Dunia melihat mereka
Sebagai peneman pengembaraan hidupku
Namun aku belum pasti, belum yakin
Jikalau mereka ingin aku berjaya
Kerana hati itu aliran sungai
Mungkin jernih kerana kasih
Mungkin keruh kerana cemburu

Tatkala manusia menghampakan
Aku teringat akan pesan
Usah bergantung kepada manusia
Yang kelemahan mereka akan mengecewakan
Namun sandarkan harapan itu pada Tuhan
Kerana di situlah rahsia kekuatan hati
Di situlah rahsia ketabahan jiwa

Digubah oleh:
Siti Nadzirah Bte Hamzah
Berita Harian, EKSTRA!
3hb September 2010

countdown maulid @ an-nahdhah.

2011-01-01T22:42:00.001+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum,

yesterday evening, dearest sis iffah and i spent the last few hours of 2010 at masjid an-nahdhah. it was a last minute plan, but alhamdulillah both of us managed to attend! hee, what better way to welcome the arrival of 2011 than to wrap up the year with zikr and selawat, girltalk session at the bus stop (best kan sis, chit chat sambil menikmati pemandangan indah of the field and night sky di luar masjid!), qasidah and tazkirah. oh! and the tasty spread of food! sampai ada yang berdoa sambil pegang pisang eh, tak sempat nak makan. :p

met sooo many beautiful souls too, such as my secondary school junior ana fellana who has grown sooo much taller ever since the last time i stood beside her in secondary school (the tinggi is so mak oi tinggi lor!), sis sakinah's mum (whose abaya is so prettyyyyy sungguh chantek.com!), the gorgeous siblings sis raudhah jamil and sis aisyah jamil (*muah muah rindu korang!), wak leha (she asked me, "tak tidur kat masjid nanti?" and i replied, "tak, wak leha. saya tidur kat rumah." hee), nurul afiqah's younger sister (we used to babysit afiqah when i was very young), sis nasriah the supermodel (hehee so tall :p), beautiful ladies sis atiqah haizan and sis haier azhani, and a junior from secondary school whom i didn't manage to recognise sorryyy! if you are reading this, all the best for your nursing course okay honey ;) and sis nur hanis with her younger sister ;) semua yang i jumpa cantik-cantik belaka, mashaALLAH! :D

it has been quite a while since sis iffah and i got to meet up and catch up with each other, and yesterday we talked, cried, laughed over silly jokes and clumsiness. hamba amat berterima kasih kerana bersahabat dengan sis iffah yang lembut hatinya untuk menerima nasihat dan teguran, semoga menjadi wanita solehah dan kakak yang mithali! =) oh yes and speaking of clumsiness, here is my list of resolutions hehehe.

nadzirah's top five 2011 resolutions

1) to be a more disciplined individual (work, ibadah, housechores, time management)

2) to learn a new language. okay or maybe learn in depth about arabic!

3) to save money and not shop on impulse (alhamdulillah so far there has been improvement!!)

4) to put my knowledge into practice

5) to learn more about islaam and the women in the times of Rasulullah sollallahu `alaihi wasallam

okay hee that's it for today. will strive to stick to my resolutions bi barkatil hadi Rasulullah sollallahu `alaihi wasallam. goodnight ;)

2011.

2011-01-01T12:44:00.001+08:00

the night before 2011 was beautiful. terlalu indah untuk diungkapkan dengan kata-kata. malam yang dipenuhi pujian kepada ALLAH, memohon keampunan dari ALLAH, menidakkan kewujudan tuhan lain selain ALLAH dan akhirnya, kalimah agung yang menggegarkan hati para mukmin... nama ALLAH itu sendiri yang diulang dan diulang sehingga ia menusuk ke qalbu yang selama ini kosong, tandus, kering-kontang kerana telah lama tidak disirami cahaya iman yang redup.

kalimah ALLAH yang disebut-sebut dengan mata yang terpejam, tiba-tiba terasa seperti suatu beban berat yang tidak bisa ditanggung oleh diri yang teramat sangat hina. bagaimana mungkin kalimah yang agung itu diucapi oleh lidah yang kotor, berlumuran dosa, yang mencerca dan menghina? namun dengan sifat Rahmah ALLAH, Dia titipkan juga nikmat tersebut kepada mereka yang telah mengosongkan hati mereka, mengosongkan diri mereka dengan harapan agar sinar ALLAH itu dapat mengisi jiwa-jiwa yang ketandusan iman.

tubuh yang menggeletar kerana khauf, kerana takut, tidak lagi dapat dikawal, sukar untuk dibendung kerana beban yang terasa itu tidak pernah dialami sebelum ini. betapa indahnya kalimah "laa ilaha ilallah" sebagai peringatan kepada para hamba bahawa yang Wujud itu hanya satu. begitu hikmahnya cara ALLAH mendidik hati yang masih keliru. namun belum sempat meredakan diri dengan perasaan yang cukup membuak-buak, nama ALLAH mula bergema. diri hilang kewujudan dan hanya Dia yang wujud. mulalah layu tubuh yang tadinya bergetar ketakutan, tangisan yang tidak terkawal semakin reda, kepala yang tertunduk tadi diletakkan di atas beg kerana terlalu lemah untuk menanggung Nama yang Maha Indah. antara sedar dan tidak sedar, nama ALLAH itu terus diulang, diucap oleh lidah-lidah para jemaah yang berada di dalam GenggamanNya.

kemudian, dengan lembut Dia memujuk hati yang resah, takut, berdosa. hati kepunyaan hamba faqir yang telah banyak lalai. di dalam lena dan tangisan dgn mata yang terpejam, jasad terasa seperti berputar secara perlahan, seperti berada di tengah-tengah kuntuman bunga. langit biru lembut serta taman yang menghijau menghiburkan hati. seperti dipujuk oleh Yang Maha Lembut, Pentadbir semesta alam serta Penghibur Agung kepada para hambaNya. kemudian, si faqir dibawa kembali ke dunia.

peristiwa semalam merupakan suatu peristiwa yang terlalu manis, seperti mutiara yang mempamerkan keindahannya buat beberapa saat sebelum menghilang semula ke dasar laut, dan hanya akan kembali beberapa lama lagi. suatu perasaan indah yang tidak akan dialami oleh mereka yang hadir di countdown siloso ataupun zouk out. semoga kita semua termasuk di kalangan mereka yang bertaubat dan membersihkan diri, ameen ya Rabbal `alameen.

2010-12-31T14:36:00.001+08:00

dear puteh,

kakak love you because you are special in your own way

although you are one fierce feline who dislikes to be cuddled and carried

with beautifully sharp claws which has carved countless bleeding lines across my flesh

kakak will always be there for you

to spend time with you and your favourite toy hamster and shoelace

and to pinch your excess fats and annoy you whenever possible

and tepuk your babad until you get irritated. hehehehe.

thank you for sleeping on my iron board

until the surface has now been coated with white fur

and now i cannot iron my clothes in my room

must tumpang gosok in my mum's room

because everytime i wash the surface, you will be there to sleep on it again

dengan selesa dan tanpa rasa serba salah

but no matter what happens, you will always be

my puteh girl, my cabbage patch kid and my buncit girl.

okay eh? ok go.

love,

your kakak.

2010-12-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

bowling for the first time today. seronok!

tapi first-first nak bowl tu, seram: "kiter takut...! kiter nak balik...!" (i almost cried)
i walked to the line then back to the seat, then paced to and fro with the bowling ball

was terribly nervous because i didn't know how to play at all!

but managed to get a few strikes tau, jgn main-main. heee. ;)

♥

2010-12-29T22:49:00.001+08:00

thank you so much... :'))

2010-12-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

hari ini, hamba dipertemukan dengan memori al arqam

setelah sekian lama mencari dan hampir menemui jalan mati

♥

2010-12-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum all :D

just to let you know that the ladies tea party last sunday went well as planned (except for the heavy rain and a number of last minute withdrawals due to unforeseen circumstances! :/ ) but nevertheless, alhamdulillah! it was D'SouL Sistas very first event and we pulled it off pretty well with the participation of such beautiful muslimahs. thank you ladies, will update you if we have any future events up okay. *muah

next next, umm i know this may not seem important but a few weeks ago i bought a vintage pink alarm clock at a flea market heehee. so chantek lor!

okay, then there's the year-end shopping sale which i totally was not aware of. after putting a sum aside for home expenses, a bit of shopping (basically home plants, some books and products from toko wan ikhsan, a dress, the vintage alarm clock, polka dots bedsheet…etc), i stared at the balance and told myself, "i am going to force-save more than usual," and alhamdulillah, managed to! ytd i added another $100 so total savings for december is $2,000 in total :D if you have yet to start saving, pls start now and force-save and stop looking at sales already!! heeeee. ;)

ummm what else. i am still the same 'ol next-door lady with the faded black crocs shoes, who loves vintage things, who likes to spend some time my cat puteh (her new nickname is cabbage patch kid. i don't know why but i cannot help but to call her that!! hehehehe), who merajuk once in a little while and cries at the slightest things and the lady who will be turning 21 this 9th january 2011, inshaAllah! *wink

i'd better get going now. i think it will be weeks before i update sth like this again, but meanwhile, feel free to read through the few lines of thoughts on my little page. till next time, assalaamu`alaykum.

2010-12-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

seorang hamba yang tenggelam dalam Tuhan

sudah tidak dapat lagi membezakan antara suka dan duka

kerana ujian dan nikmat semuanya sama baginya

yang tidak melihat sesiapa kecuali Dia

2010-12-28T08:01:00.000+08:00

sahabat,

ambillah secebis kenangan pertemuan dahulu

sebagai teman di dalam perjalanan

yang semakin berbeda.

Cara Tuhan Membalas Kasih terhadap Kekasih-Nya.

2010-12-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

Cara Tuhan membalas kasih terhadap kekasih-Nya
tidak seperti manusia
Kalau manusia membalas kasih terhadap kekasihnya
diberi sesuatu yang menghiburkan atau menyukakan
Kalau berlaku di sebalik itu, bukan membalas kasih namanya.

Berlainan sekali Tuhan terhadap kekasih-Nya
Memberi kasih sungguh aneh, tidak serupa dengan manusia
Tuhan memberi kasih terhadap cinta-Nya
disusah-susahkan-Nya dengan bermacam-macam penderitaan.

Kekasih-kekasih Tuhan ialah para Rasul dan Anbiya dan
juga orang yang soleh dan bertaqwa sepanjang zaman
Kasih Tuhan terhadap mereka dimiskinkan, dibenci orang,
disakitkan, dihalang perjuangannya dan
diperangi, diburu oleh musuh-musuhnya.

Meraka dibuang dan terbuang di negeri orang
di dalam kehidupan yang menyusahkan
Mereka faham kasih Tuhan terhadap mereka
Kerana itulah mereka redha, mereka boleh sabar di dalam penderitaan
Bahkan rasa terhibur kerana Tuhannya
Kerana itulah Nabi pernah bersabda: "Bala yang paling
dahsyat ditimpakan adalah kepada para Rasul dan Anbiya dan Auliya."

Kemudian mereka selepas itu mengikut peringkat yang
diberikan iman kepada mereka,
Semakin tinggi iman mereka, semakin berat bala
ditimpakan kepadanya
Kalau kurang iman mereka, kurang pula bala
Bala yang ditimpa kepada orang beriman mengikut tinggi
rendah imannya.

Ada juga orang tidak beriman, fasik dan zalim,
Diberatkan ujian kepada mereka itu adalah kutukan Tuhan kepada mereka
Yang saya ceritakan ini hanya orang beriman sahaja,
Kalau seorang Islam tidak pernah dibala atau balanya
ringan sahaja janganlah bergembira
Jangan-jangan mereka sudah tidak ada perhatian lagi
dari Tuhannya.

Kerana itu takutlah dengan Tuhannya,
Kerana kasih Tuhan kepada hamba-Nya bukan macam manusia
Kasih Tuhan kepada hamba-Nya tersendiri caranya
Orang bertaqwa sahaja yang faham tentang Tuhannya.

puisi Allahyarham Abuya Ashaari Muhammad

2010-12-27T13:31:00.001+08:00

aku bukan bidadari,

hanya seorang wanita faqir

yang mengharapkan belas ihsan Tuhan

sepanjang perjalanan hidup.

2010-12-21T19:51:00.001+08:00

"I shall meet you some day. My love shall that day be with me.
Step out of that statue and come to me, my love."

- Pardes (1997)

♥

2010-12-11T01:27:00.004+08:00

Durun Nafis is patiently waiting for
❀ 20th December 2010, at exactly 3.00 p.m. ❀

inshaAllah.

2010-12-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

i guess being a dad, apart from managing issues among his men in his rota, he also has to handle his daughter's emotional and cranky moments at home too. :p my moodswing made me merajuk with my family (cheh salahkan moodswing pula). it was quite bad because it lasted for hours and i refused to talk to anybody. but eventually dad willingly sat down with me and listened to me talk (more like mengomel) in between sobs. then we are all okay :D hehehehe. thank you ayah for being patient with my karenah~ fikir-fikir balik, macam budak-budak pula nak merajuk-merajuk! hehehe :p

Ya Rabb, Tuhan yang Mengurniakan kesembuhan kepada makhluk, sembuhkanlah kedua ibu bapaku dengan kesembuhan yang sempurna. ampunkanlah dosa kedua ibu bapaku dan rahmatilah mereka sepertimana mereka telah memeliharaku sewaktu aku kecil ;(( ameen ya Rabb...

2010-12-10T01:26:00.000+08:00

Tanpa ragu-ragu Allah boleh mewakil sesiapa sahaja untuk memberi pertolonganNya

kepada mereka yang benar-benar menempatkan kepercayaan kepadaNya

kerana Allah subhanahu wa ta`ala mengusai hati setiap makhlukNya.

2010-12-06T23:52:00.000+08:00

Orang yang kuat jiwa (kerana kuat dengan Tuhan) mukanya sentiasa ceria sekalipun ia di dalam ujian seolah-olah dia macam tidak ada masalah, yang dia selalu susahkan ialah dengan dosanya

madah abuya

2010-12-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

Salaamu `alaykum, ladies.

Good news! LADIES TEA PARTY is now going at $10 per person!

For those who have yet to confirm with us, do book your seats now! ♥

Limited seats available.

2010-12-03T16:37:00.000+08:00

ruh lebih utama daripada jasad.

2010-12-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

Suatu ketika Umar Ibnu Abdul Aziz - saat itu masih menjadi khalifah - memerintahkan seseorang untuk membeli sehelai baju untuknya dengan wang sebanyak lapan dirham. Utusan itu kemudian pergi, dan setelah beberapa saat, ia kembali dengan membawa baju yang dibeli. Umar Ibnu Abdul Aziz meletakkan tangannya di atas baju yang baru dibeli itu sambil berkata: "Alangkah lembut dan bagus baju ini!"

Lelaki yang membelikan baju itu tersenyum dan Umar bertanya kepadanya: "Mengapa engkau tersenyum?"

Dia menjawab: "Kerana engkau, wahai Amirul Mukminin - sebelum menjadi khalifah - pernah memerintahkanku untuk membeli sehelai kain sutera. Ketika aku membelinya dengan harga seribu dirham, engkau merabanya dengan tanganmu, engkau bersungut: 'Alangkah kasarnya kain ini!' Tetapi sekarang engkau merasakan lembut pada kain yang hanya lapan dirham."

Umar berkata: "Aku tidak boleh menganggap orang yang membeli sehelai kain seharga seribu dirham memiliki rasa takut kepada Allah."

Kemudian dia berkata: "Sesungguhnya aku memiliki jiwa yang selalu ingin naik ke tingkat yang lebih tinggi. Setiap kali aku meraih suatu kedudukan, aku ingin yang lebih tinggi daripadanya. Aku telah diangkat menjadi gabenor, aku pun ingin menjawat jawatan sebagai khalifah. Kemudian aku diangkat menjadi khalifah, aku pun ingin meraih yang lebih agung daripada itu, iaitu syurga."

- petikan daripada buku Jangan Bersedih - Jadilah Wanita Yang Paling Bahagia
karangan Dr. `Aidh Bin `Abdullah Al-Qarni

2010-12-02T16:09:00.001+08:00

Mengingati Allah selalu akan menghilangkan rasa cemas, ragu-ragu dan tidak percaya diri. Mengingati Allah dapat melindungi hati dari kesesatan. Mengingati Allah merupakan ubat yang mujarab, makanan yang diberkati, ubat yang bermanfaat dan makanan yang baik.

Dengan mengingati Allah bererti mengesakanNya dari sekutu-sekutuNya, menjadikan orang-orang yang ditimpa musibah menjadi sabar, dan menyejukkan hati mereka yang gundah gulana. Mengingati Allah dapat memberikan ketenteraman pada saat-saat yang menggoncangkan dan pada saat-saat terjadinya fitnah.

"Dan bersabarlah dalam menunggu ketetapan Tuhanmu, maka sesungguhnya kamu berada dalam Penglihatan Kami, dan bertasbihlah dengan memuji Tuhanmu ketika kamu bangun berdiri, dan bertasbihlah kepada-Nya pada beberapa saat di malam hari dan di waktu terbenam bintang-bintang (di waktu fajar). (surah at-Tuur, ayat 48-49)

2010-12-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

last week, my grandmother and relatives from overseas stayed at our place for the weekend. i was carrying my laptop while walking to mum's room, when my aunt called out:

aunt: can you open the laptop?
me: yes!
aunt: can i see the picture?
me: umm. which picture eh?
aunt: the picture lah... of him.

before i knew it, my aunts and uncle were gathering in front of the laptop to take a look at the picture of him. aunt later showed the "chop" sign as approval. hee. mum, dad and grandmother sudah merestui. hanya tinggal masa sahaja.... ;)

2010-12-01T15:48:00.000+08:00

assalaamu`alaykum, phew! i have just recovered from the monthly moodswing awhile ago. initially i kept quiet throughout but then i just had to vent it but it wasn't as terrible as my past moodswings. hmmmm. silent zikr and iced green tea does work to sooth the tantrum! i just hope it won't happen again :x

the school holidays are here and i have no plans to go out so i am going to make the best out of the leisure time i have at hoooome~! been busy maintaining the blogshop, getting back to doing house chores, bake bake baking, and spending more time with my dear cat puteh! i bought a toy hamster for her from pet kampong store and boy oh boy! she sure loves the hamster so much she treats it like a real one! like biting it by the neck and tossing it in the air and jumping around as though the hamster is about to attack!

other than that, i would hold my secondary school purple shoelace by the end and run from one end of the house to the other with puteh tailing after the shoelace, wriggling her body and pouncing on it! subhanaAllah, there's a warm feeling seeing your pet cat so happy and active. ;-)

chocolate chunk chewy cookies

i had just finished making marie biscuit batik cake, which is sooo simple to prepare! and it doesn't even require an oven (save electricity. hehehehe). :D will be meeting my customers in the evening later so meanwhile, i want to read magazines and books and stories of muslim ladies in the times of Rasulullah, take pictures of the english floral products to be uploaded at the shouq shop later! laze around, put my head on puteh's tummy (mum finds it very dangerous considering puteh is verrryyyyy temperamental!!). will update again, inshaAllah! wasalaam.

2010-11-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

let's go, yok! :D

dinner & dance, four seasons hotel.

2010-11-25T10:36:00.009+08:00

assalaamu`alaikum all, i hope you are in the best of health and imaan, ameen ya Rabb! i was terribly occupied the whole week that i could not have proper time to sit and blog away~! or perhaps it is just my time management skills that needs some improvement (dad will definitely agree on this one). heehee. but it is better being busy than doing nothing at all ^^ currently tied up with the blogshop, freelance journalism (sooo happy when i saw my articles on kem obor featured at berita harian! thank you sis haryani), hijhop dance class and planning for upcoming event by our newly-formed group with sis aiza and sis hazimah (stay tuned, ladies!). school holidays are here so teaching can take a backseat for now. PSLE results today! sooo cannot wait for my neighbour's results!

speaking of school, we had the annual dinner and dance yesterday evening at the four seasons hotel, with the theme black and gold. alhamdulillah, we had a memorable night! initially i just wanted to wear my gold baju kurung and dress simply, but then on the day before the dinner, i was itching to try something new *mentel*. heehee. so i went shopping for the jalabiya dress, makeuppp and accessories, and got everything i wanted within four hours (inclusive of travelling time). alhamdulillah! segala puji bagi Yang Memudahkan segala urusan. :-)

on the actual day, i got ready as early as after asar prayer. i was hoping that i could preserve my wudhu` till maghrib, and alhamdulillah i managed to do so ;) i am the kind who seldom wears makeup and would just apply lip balm, save for days when i feel like dolling myself up. hehe. so after flipping through fashion magazines for the past few days for ideas, i roughly got an idea of the kind of makeup i would like for myself - bronze smoky eyes. and for an amateur like me, i kind of achieved that look in an hour!

the event was breathtakingly grand with our very own mr naza being such a wonderful and hilarious host, plus the sumptuous spread of appetizers, entree, desserts... was in cloud nice tasting the sherry triffle, homemade ice cream and sorbet, and hazelnut royaltine chocolate cake. oooh heavens~! there were games too, and the last one was the best dressed contest. i was among those who got called out to go on stage. paiseh~! as i walked up, mr naza was like, "ya maulana! ya maulana!" hahaha.

in total, three ladies and three men were selected and were paired to sashay through the ballroom. i was quite nervous when i saw the first pair of teachers walking round so confidently, with the female locking her hand around the male's arm~! then came my turn, and i thought, "should i walk behind him? beside him? i can't hold his arm!" but before we walked down the stage for the catwalk, the host told my partner, mr tomy, in front of everyone,

"this one you cannot hold ah... HARAAAAAM." hahaha! mr tomy still offered his arm though, so i just tugged his sleeve and we walked together.

then came the results, where audience were to applause for best dressed male and female. got the loudest cheer for female best dressed, and mr chong won the male best dressed, then we had to stay on stage. that was not it! i got terrified again because since it was dinner and dance, and considering the other participants for other games had to do pretty silly things, the chances of us being asked to dance was rather high. di sebalik senyuman tersirat suatu kebimbangan yang amat sangat! what came next...

mr naza told us to catwalk through the ballroom for the last time as the "king and queen of the night". phew~~! at least that wasn't so bad. mr chong gladly offered his arm, and amidst the loud music and applause, i told him before we walked, "i hold your shirt okay." thankfully he understands!

that was the highlight of the event for me, just typing it here for memory's sake. ;) it's almost 10:30am now, i want to make the best out of today inshaAllah! go go go~! will update again when i have interesting news inshaAllah! till next time~ wasalaam.

2010-11-21T20:32:00.000+08:00

last day of school.

2010-11-20T10:53:00.001+08:00

on the last day of school, some students were really sweet to present me some gifts like the handmade cotton-stuffed panda, heart-shaped handphone accessory in a red velvet heart-shaped box, a couple of hearts made out of felt cloth, a set of brooches!

i bought the jewel-encrusted silver bangle for $10 at a mall nearby, both two vintage brooches for 60 cents (can you believe it?? i bought them from my students at the primary 6 bazaar), my favourite jewel-encrusted watch which i am selling ;) and last but not least, my deep pink anklet. i love them to bits. ♥

♥

2010-11-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

home sweet home after teacher's dikir barat performance this evening :D

2010-11-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

sowie.... :((

2010-11-13T17:19:00.000+08:00

~ THE SHOUQ SHOP HAS BEEN UPDATED ~

click here to check it out! ♥

2010-11-13T10:02:00.000+08:00

♥

2010-11-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

ya Rabb.............

2010-11-08T22:56:00.004+08:00

nadzirah and ayuni, best friends since secondary school!

i must really stop being sooooo clumsy already! :x

here's what happened yesterday. after progress class, we mentors had our usual lunch at the conference room. i was engrossed in business talk and deal with the other mentors that i realised i had to rush to meet my customers. so i grabbed my bag, plastic bag, laptop and dashed off. halfway along my journey, i realised something was amiss but i continued walking. but but but then i couldn't stand not knowing what was the thing that seemed missing, so i stopped and checked and voila, my handphone's not with me!!

i was pretty desperate, clutching all three bulky items of mine (but still feeling pretty because of the pink indian anklet i was wearing hahaha but that's not my point) then i saw an elderly couple so i stopped them! i asked if i could borrow their phone to call my brother who was still at the conference room. so they kindly lend their phone to me, but but but! i suddenly forgot my brother's phone number, of all days yes i know! i could feel my brain pulsating and heart beating so fast! i was perspiring underneath my hijab and could feel beads of sweat trickling down my back. so i called my dad to help call my brother to check if my phone was still there.

met my customers to pass them the harem pants and mirror, looking all panicky and panting like i have never breathed air before. then i rushed off to meet my younger cousin j.homie at the mrt platform. borrowed her phone to call my brother and alhamdulillah! he got hold of my phone which he found on the cupboard next to where i placed my belongings. seeeeee! rush rush somemore doya!

both of us made our way to masjid an-nahdhah for the dance class. before that sis hazimah, sis aiza and i discussed a bit on our upcoming project which inshaAllah WILL happen!! so excitedddd for it! :D btw, i really enjoyed the choreography by sis aiza! need more practice on the last part though :p ladies, better revise the steps (plus all the choreography from the past few weeks) okay!

so when dance was over, we packed up our stuff, left the multipurpose hall (MPH) with the door locked from inside. we fixed our hijab in the washroom (where i realised i left my brooch in the already-locked MPH) while some got ready for `Asr prayer. as we made our way to the prayer hall, i realised something else was not right!

"OH MY GOD! where's my laptop?!" i cried out.

thinking it was in the washroom, i hurried to the washroom but saw no laptop at all. sis aiza pointed out that it might still be in the MPH and she was right. through the glass pane from outside the MPH, i stared sadly at my laptop, nicely placed on a stack of chairs. we could not get the keys because the person in-charge has left. so many thoughts were streaming into my mind, like how am i supposed to do my work assignment? how am i going to go online? what about facebook? i was already thinking of coming back to masjid an-nahdhah after work the next day to retrieve my laptop. while the others were praying, i was pacing to and fro thinking nervously about my laptop.

then my rationale mind told myself, that the separate occasions of me being separated from my handphone and laptop on the same day might be a reminder that i should not depend too much on them, worldly materials. then the reminder of zuhud came, about surah at-talaq that says if we put our trust in Allah, He will provide us a way out from ways we can never expect. i convinced myself, i calmed my mind with zikr despite the sad expression plastered on my face.

before we left masjid, one of the sisters said, "look! that man is opening the door!" and indeed! the pakcik was cleaning the masjid and he was about to step out of the MPH so from the ladies prayer hall, i ran and screeched like a girl because that was my only chance of getting my laptop back! alhamdulillah, i told the pakcik what happened and got my laptop AND brooch and left the room smiling from ear to ear. ;))

ayu went to my place after the dance class to get her stuff and earnings from the flea market the day before. alhamdulillah! she earned quite a lot ;)) we had a picnic in my room (yup, seated on the floral mat on the floor) eating hershey chocolate cream cakes my brother bought, blackcurrant juice, fluffy pandan cakes and butter crackers. then later that night we had dinner of rice and a few other dishes. :D it's been long since we had a girltalk like yesterday! thanks ayu for dropping by our humble home ;))

so that pretty much sums up my day ytd. i need some rest before a new day starts tomorrow! need to get all charged up with full of energy. hasbunallah wa ni`mal wakeel, ni`mal maulaa wa ni`man naseer.

btw, THE BLOGSHOP BAZAAR LAST SATURDAY WAS A BLAST!! it was a much better experience compared to my first flea market, but `ala kulli hal, alhamdulillah. ♥

november's first saturday.

2010-11-06T10:06:00.001+08:00

salaam `alaykum,

this is it. today is the day we have been waiting for! the blogshop bazaar for today will begin at 12pm later and here i am still lazing around in bed with less than three hours to go! the whole night ytd was spent packing the clothes into bags (one luggage and seven huge plastic bags full of clothes) so i can be much more relaxed today. alhamdulillah! the weather is looking fine and i hope it stays that way at least till the end of bazaar *please ya Rabb? with a cherry on top :D*

ytd afternoon, ayu and i dropped by the bazaar. apart from the impulsive shopping where i was just excited as a small girl in a barbie toy store, we had the new roasta burger meal which was worth the money spent! :9 i also love the fact that i was having a meal and conversation with a wanita solehah who has inspired me to be a better person each day. tak pernah jemu bila berbual dengannya. =)

okay, it 10 am now. get a quick breakfast and prepare myself for the day! have a blessed saturday everyone. *muah

2010-11-05T21:05:00.003+08:00

hi people, inshaAllah tmr (saturday) my blogshop, the shouq shop, will be having a booth at the Blogshop Bazaar outside bukit batok West Mall, 12pm to 9pm. harem pants, dresses, batik & patchwork skirts, vintage mirrors etc available. see u tmr! ♥

2010-11-04T13:49:00.001+08:00

ighfirli ya Ghaffar :(((((((((((((((((((((((((

2010-11-02T22:11:00.000+08:00

many ways have been explored as an ikhtiar to heal my condition namun Dia mengingatkan bahawa semuanya bergerak mengikut PerintahNya. kulit itu hamba, saraf itu hamba, anggota badan itu semuanya hamba yang mentaati Tuhan. hati yang bertangiskan hujan hanya kembali reda bila dipujuk dengan NamaMu! Allah Allah Allah Allah... Penghibur Agung di dalam segala hal~ ♥

2010-10-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

i would love to become one of them! ameen ya Rabb ♥

seminar pendidikan by ustadz hasan din.

2010-10-29T17:47:00.001+08:00

* * i was informed that this will be postponed to december! still looking forward to it nevertheless :D

2010-10-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

friday night dinner at mad jack with family, refreshing saturday morning jog,

midday nap, me-time and shopping, sunday progress class and hij hop dance class.

i declare that i had a fabulous weekend, alhamdulillah!

♥

2010-10-23T23:08:00.001+08:00

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world

Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love

Like I'm the only one who knows your heart

Only girl in the world

♥

2010-10-22T06:41:00.000+08:00

2010-10-20T18:53:00.001+08:00

new harem pants available at the shouq shop :D

manja carpark, who is closer to dad than any of us in the family

puteh making her way out for her afternoon suntan session outside home

i had a few spoonfuls of ice kachang despite the sore throat. hehehehe.

outside my room.

small things which made my day.

i loathe premenstrual syndrome.

2010-10-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

2010-10-18T21:19:00.002+08:00

"i never thought you'd be the one to make me shine brighter than the sun
there ain't no ups and downs, no in and out to here right now"
- lumidee

♥

2010-10-18T17:48:00.000+08:00

it is heartbreaking to witness these people turning an architectural plan into reality, on what used to be my land of childhood. where i would walk by its side on my way to kindergarten, plucking dandelions or touching mimosa plants along the way. where i would roam freely on the plot of land playing kites crafted out of newspapers and broom sticks.

the field not far away has been transformed into a shopping mall. the one on the other side has been developed into a residential place (i find it very suffocating to have a housing estate being squeezed into that particular area) and NOWWWWW, the field behind my house is no longer going to be there! :'(((((((( can i protest.... :'((((((

unless of course they are going to build some kind of office or school, where i can conveniently walk and work, so i do not have to worry on transportation. THEY BETTER BUILD SOMETHING WITH A JOB OPPORTUNITY FOR ME. then i can wave at my mum from my office desk. hehehehe. ok lah bye!

2010-10-16T09:42:00.000+08:00

wheeee~! after doing my own extensive research,

i have decided to get the canon PIXMA MG5270!! (jakun 5 minit)
and i have just learnt that ppm stands for paper per minute. hehehe.

2010-10-16T08:56:00.003+08:00

salaam `alaykum. goooooood saturday morning! it feels great waking up from a satisfying sleep and spending the saturday morning at home with no plans to go out. ok actually i do have errands to run and will be buying a brand new printer later in the afternoon. i so cannot wait! right now i am leafing through printer reviews, trying to understand all the technical terminologies. ppm black, ppm colour (i subconsciously add my own vowels so to me it sounds popom), 20-sheet ADF... you get the idea. i am looking at HP printers as recommended by the IT hero, so if it does not work as expected, i hope to get a refund from him. :p

next week will be PSLE marking week and i will be conducting remedial lessons for my primary two, primary five regular and foundation malay!! this is so exciting. fyi, i am very animated when in class, be it when i am sharing knowledge with them, dishing out the rules or when i get furious! especially with the primary two students. i will walk to the student, place my hands on my hips and stare with widened eyes, arched eyebrows and stiffened lips, followed by a reprimand. until one of the primary six kids said, "cikgu kalau marah suka nah beliakkan mata." hahaha :p

apart from all that, i hope that every word i say to the kids has substance and hikmah, and i really hope i am prevented from saying things which are unnecessary. and most importantly, to practise what i say! hamba mohon bimbingan dari Tuhan yang Maha Bijaksana... ok now back to reading printer reviews. have a good weekend, inshaAllah! ♥

(pardon me for the previous one-liner post which has already been deleted. i was emotional for 30 minutes only. nyehehe)

2010-10-13T18:11:00.000+08:00

that's my hand disturbing her during her sleep :p

when dad's civil defence men came over for hari raya visit.

she sniffed each and every one of the visitors' footwear
before settling on her apparent favourite.

beautiful display of lanterns during the festival season!

this is what happens when you are engrossed in
using the laptop and ignores her mewing.

breathtaking view from commonwealth secondary school.

brady barr, the host of national geographic's dangerous encounters!

i got the chance to meet and interview him :))))))))

children's day treats for primary 2 school kids & primary 4 progress class kids.

lunch at work - mee rebus: $1.00, three nuggets: $0.90, green tea bottle: $1.00

salaam `alaykum. yes finallyyyy, i am here blogging. alhamdulillah! thank you for dropping by to check on this humble page for updates :p i am on the road to recovery after a pretty awful fever, headache, cough, sore throat, flu attack! although i must admit that i don't mind having the latter :D i could clearly rmb how my friday night was, shivering throughout the night despite being covered up in a thick winter jacket and a blanket! my body was soooo heaty, the headache was throbbing unforgivingly and the cough was not pleasant at all, that i couldn't stop crying throughout the night. with that, i hope a tiny portion of sins have been erased by The Forgiving One. i'm just left with cough and slight sore throat. i must remind myself to drink lots and lots of plain water! inshaAllah i will be fine. ;) `ala kulli hal, thank you for the du`a and well wishes on fb, i hope all of you are in the best state of health and imaan, ameen ya Rabb.

i have been enjoying work so far, it's been a great journey with the guidance of my wonderful colleagues, alhamdulillah! however, as much as i enjoy work, i am stiiiiiill not sure if i would want to have this as my lifelong career. i have been asking around for opinions but at the end of the day, i need to make the decision so i have to think through this carefully. for now i want to work, gain experience in a number of fields and make the best of what i've learnt throughout poly studies. ya Rabb, i seek guidance from You (but i have yet to perform istikharah hehehehe). but in the meantime while i am still around, i hope the kids will be able to benefit a thing or two from what i have shared with them! inshaAllah kheir. ;)

okay i hope to post a few more updates really soooon, inshaAllah!

2010-10-11T10:43:00.000+08:00

ya Rabb

:'(

2010-10-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

with the primary four progress class kids and my brother bakim, after class. :D

2010-09-30T19:28:00.001+08:00

♥

2010-09-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

with my younger cousins when they came over for a hari raya visit.

we spent our time watching misheard lyrics videos, annoying orange & random parodies.

2010-09-18T08:59:00.000+08:00

smlm family kiter dapat ziarah a keluarga hamba soleh yang akhlaq mulianya jelas terpancar. kiter banyak belajar daripada beliau walaupun indirectly, by observing cara beliau communicate with the people around him and how beliau dan keluarganya meraikan kehadiran tetamu. ya Rabb, hati sentiasa tenang bila berada di rumahnya~!

2010-09-12T08:00:00.000+08:00

we're back from kampung, alhamdulillah ♥

2010-09-09T03:04:00.002+08:00

assalaamu `alaikum, this will be my final post before my family and i leave for kampung later after my lesson. i hope Ramadhan has been like a "pit stop" for us to recharge our iman and strengthen our ties with The Creator as well as the people around us, and all other creations lah senang cakap. hehe.

to the blog readers, i would like to wish each and everyone of you an EID MUBARAK, SELAMAT HARI RAYA! ♥ pls forgive me should i have ever offended you in any ways imaginable by man. pls pls pls forgive me...

to my primary and secondary school friends, poly mates and sisters, feel free to drop by my humble home for a Hari Raya visit okay? i prefer to receive guests lah rather than travel from house to house :p

yeah, balik kampung main mercun :D (berbual step mane nye expert main mercun je) ok bye! wasalaam.

hij hop flava.

2010-09-08T13:35:00.003+08:00

hi korang-korang semua. pls take note that timing has been changed from a two-hour class to one hour. october class is $15 only. if you're interested to join but are still considering, you can pop by our trial class for a sneak preview of the actual class! trial class is free :D pls refer to poster below.

such a class has yet to be offered in masjids, and we are the first to launch this whee~! approved by asatizah at masjid an-nahdhah thanks to sis rafiqah muah muah! no worries, there won't be any photo or video-taking so if you wana remove ur hijab when u step into class pun boleh :D okay okay? looking forward to see you ladies in the FREE trial class! ♥

2010-09-07T14:56:00.000+08:00

2010-09-07T10:01:00.002+08:00

♥

2010-09-07T01:53:00.001+08:00

hati bagaikan rojak bandung di dalam mangkuk.

okay i made up that peribahasa. heehee. so now here's my pantun dua kerat:

"you were twenty and you were botak.

kiter minta maaf banyak-banyak....."

2010-09-04T23:55:00.004+08:00

assalaamu `alaikum, kaifa hailukum dear readers. semoga dalam keadaan kheir inshaAllah. how is ur ramadhan? personally, i find ramadhan to be the best time to fine-tune myself in a number of areas, and i hope that the progress will carry on to other months after ramadhan. i would really love to understand and appreciate the meaning of ramadhan being the month of tarbiyah, and i hope one day i will be able to fully comprehend the essence of it.

in terms of preparing for eid, everything's all moderately done. dad's been quite tied up with work's audit but alhamdulillah it's over and his rota received positive feedback. hamdanlillah! :D that means we can do some last minute hari raya shopping peacefully and ayah dah tak stressed2 lagi. hehe. btw i think i won't be selling off the dress because i just love it to bits just that i'm tall for it. i think i'll just revamp it a bit and wear it for eid. :)) (nadz pls refrain urself from purchasing online next time unless you are purchasing things like books or scarves thanks)

most of the time, i've been staying at home, spending awesome quality time with the family and having time for myself. i will just leave home if there are errands i need to run or outings with the gfs. mum now lets me do cooking for iftar wooo bahagia!

ibu kiter goreng :D

it all dated back to the secondary school days when i started by cooking simple dishes like pasta or western dishes because i think you know lah how simple cooking western dishes can be. but that time memang jarang masak sebab selalu layan friendster haha. other than that i'd just make like butterprawns, or brownies or the simple2 dishes lah. yg jenis takde rempah punya. hee. but then i realise that i NEED to learn how to cook malay cuisines because 1) i am a malay and my relatives all feast on malay cuisines, so as much as i like preparing black pepper chicken pasta or grilled chicken or tandoori chicken, i still need to go back to my roots and learn how to cook malay dishes. and 2) when i have my own family, takkan nk masak western je kan. suami penat-penat balik work, nampak kat meja je pasta. balik kerja je lapar-lapar abeh kena makan brownie. haha. so i told myself i must at least learn the malay dishes and master a few before i jadi isteri orang :p (i berbual mcm nk nikah sunday ni).

lauk feberet kiter.

well the reason why i tried to avoid cooking malay dishes last time is because i get a headache seeing so many spices and leaves required just for one dish. hahaha. serious. the daun limau, ketumbar, jintan putih, jintan hitam, jintan halus aiyo so many jintan, then the asam keping asam jawa kunyit serbuk kunyit hidup wah stress. tengok recipe je dah stressed. haha. especially the estimation part, i selalu fail. i used to ask my mum this question during the finale of cooking session:

me: ibu, garam berapa banyak eh nak kene letak?

ibu: awak agak-agak aja.

me: bu, agak-agak tu berapa banyak.

ibu: agak-agak je lah. agaration.

hahaha. that was what i used to experience like, two to three years ago. but then over a period of time you can already roughly estimate the amount and all, based on the little experience i have. so i kinda understand why mothers (including my aunts and grandmother) would just resort to saying "agak-agak", because that's really how it is when it comes to cooking! it is all because of experience. my grandmother lagi best, i asked her how she makes a particular dish (which tastes like heaven), she just replied, "campak-campak aje…" hahaha. that comes from one who has the passion of cooking and decades of experience of course.

ayam masak lemak. ibu ayah kata sedap. berbunga betul hati ni bila dgr,

especially dari ayah. sbb ayah is like a food critic. heehee.

i need to buy chocolates tmr because i promised my three kids i'll get them sth since they top their groups for math quiz :D have a blessed Ramadhan everyone.

2010-09-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

hari ini merupakan hari yg istimewa buat diri ini yang dhoif.

alhamdulillah. ♥

2010-09-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

HI PEOPLE, i have this drop dead gorgeous green butterfly chiffon dress which i just recently bought online at $100 but i am selling it at $85 (price negotiable!). this is a perfect fit for ladies of height about 1.58 to 1.6m!! i'm 1.65m and the dress is actually okay but i find it singkat lah.

bagi yang belum mempunyai baju raya atau ingin membeli another one but lazy nak ke sipaku geylang, AND if you're interested to get this dress, pls call/sms/fb msg/e-mail me ya. seriously cantik gila! harga negotiable. :D thank you daun keladi.

2010-08-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

hi moddie kakak. kalau lah moddie ada with us right now, i would have pinched your cheeks, tepuk2 ur muscular arm and dukung you mcm baby, sbb akak gembira sangat2. dy, akak ada good news, akak dah dapat berita sekolah mana akak is posted to, untuk mengajar. moddie sekarang di mana ya? dy ingat kakak tak? dah lama moddie menghilang, akak rindu moddie dan adek yg telah pergi. inshaAllah nanti di akhirat kita jumpa ya? tunggu akak ok. =')